Episode 9

TRIBAL WAS FRICKIN INSANE, MAN!

When it comes to Tribal Council, I am Neo in the Matrix. The bullets fly and I remain unscathed. The truth came out. I'm a huge target but my alliance came through for me and I'm still here.

I cannot say enough how much I owe Jaclyn, Boston Rob, and Natalie. There is zero question in their loyalty. I am with them until the very end. Or I get voted out which might be sooner rather than later. To have the support of Brenda, givin' up immunity so she could help keep me around means so much.

I went up to her before tribal and asked if she could do it. I didn't think she would, honestly. She really, really surprised me there. Even Spencer, who I would have voted out in a Boston second, had my back.

It's rare to have such a group of people to rally behind me and save my neck, that is amazin'. Granted, that rally caused my blood pressure to skyrocket but the result? I'd go to bat for any single one of them.

Check that I was so freaked out at tribal I did not notice Brenda was not permitted to give away immunity. I guess its the thought that counts, right?

This vote tonite could be my last and that's just fine by me. Of course I wanna stick around. Its quiet around camp right now. When no ones talkin' especially to you it means you better pack your bags cuz your leavin' on a jet plane and you won't know when you'll be back again.

Oh, jury, right.

There were 4 votes cast against me. Cirie Crystal Todd and I dont know.

I know for a fact that Me, Rob, and Jaclyn voted Crystal.

Kelley was immune so she couldnt vote.

Natalie I think voted Crystal?

That leaves Spence and Brenda. Im not sure who it was that voted for me but if they voted for me once they will do it again.

With Cirie handin immunity to Todd that leaves her vulnerable. But she did it for a reason.

That makes splittin the vote that much more concernin'. Brenda wants Natalie out. I cant have that. Natalie might want Brenda out. Im not super stoked on that idea either. One wrong move and not only does Cirie keep whatever advantage she has but me or one of my key alliance members might get voted out. Most likely me.

The plan now is to split the votes between Kelley and Cirie. Cirie plays an idol, Kelley goes. Cirie doesn't play an idol, Cirie is gone. Splittin' the votes is scary man. You need to make sure everyone is on board and votin' how their supposed to vote. I want to believe everyone is on board. They came together to keep me around last time but it could take one person who might not feel so secure to foul up an otherwise perfect plan.